Working full time and running a household is a lot harder than I remember! Not being married doesn't mean that I don't still have a ton of responsibilities! Having our new house has been great...absolutely awesome actually! But working 40-50 hours a week and then having weekends with Mike working nights and not getting to really spend any time together enjoying our new house has been hard! And on top of that, still trying to get divorced and trying to deal with my own parents' really really messed up divorce has been killer. I have been forgetting to be nice...honestly forgetting how to act and deal with all of the stress. I feel like I'm going to be locked up in an asylum one of these days if I don't figure something out soon. I have been meaning to start working out again but with work and cooking at work, then coming home to make a meal for Mike and me, and then trying to spend at least an hour or 2 with him, and by then its time for shower and bed just to start the day again. I feel like I'm never going to get a break to enjoy all the great things I have been blessed with recently.
But I do have to say, all of these goings on has made me really appreciate what I do have and the few amazing people that I do have left in my life. I would trade the amazing house that I have just to keep my hunny Michael Brandon Logue. I have never met someone so loving and compassionate in my life. He may drive me up the wall and do things that really annoy me, but I have never felt so loved and wanted. There is nothing that I wouldn't do for him and I can honestly say that I have NEVER been so in love. Its a totally different experience and I now know that I've never known what love really is and what it should look like until now. I love Mike now and forever.
And I'm also so grateful to have my Dad as a big part of my life again. I used to be a Daddys girl, then things happened, and I can proudly say that I am once again a Daddy's girl and absolutely love having him as a part of my life. I do often forget that he is alone now and I have a hard time remembering to call him more often than I used to but I'm trying :) We recently had him and Mike's dad and stepmom over for Mike's birthday and that was awesome. I really think he was thrilled to be invited over. I love my Dad so very much. This crazy year has brought a lot of blessings in the long run!
